It all started earlier this week when I decided to get a new email account. I used to to the AOL mail one that came with my screename, but I was never fond of AOL mail. So, I decided that I had finally had enough of using it and I got a Gmail account instead. I must say one of the best decisions ever, but that's not the point. The point was once I decided to switch email addresses, I needed to go to all of my accounts on all of my sites. That took a while. So, I found out that I had a Facebook, who knew? Well, I guess I completely forgot about it. So, I decided to check it out, see if I wanted to keep it. I decided not too, personally, I don't really get social networking sites, but maybe I'll make a new one at some point if I get it or whatever. The truth is, seeing that account and the people that were on it made me realize that I wanted nothing more than to get out of my house, get out of town, maybe even out of the state. No, not because of a stalker or freak, but because I was reminded of so much pain, ex-friends, love that I lost...all the shit I've been trying to forget from the past, eh, year or two. I honestly can't wait to go to college, but for so many more reasons that just "FREEDOM!!!" It's just, ugh, I don't know. I'm trying to deal with applying to college, scholarships and all the fun stuff that goes along with that and dealing with conflicting feelings about me and the boyfriend and wondering which friend I can trust right now. It's so infuriating! I wish that something would actually make some sense in my life. Geez, I guess I really had to rant for a minute...actually, 15 minutes, but that's ok.
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